Finding Freedom in the Fog

 *Note this Blog post is based on a Real Life Conversation

I sat down with a quietly spirited young person from North West London woop woop My neck of the woods and what unfolded was a raw yet beautiful reflection on purpose, healing, and self-discovery.

What has shaped you?

Growing up in Ethiopia as the eldest in a high-pressure home—Father a diplomat, often absent; mother, strict and emotionally distant—could often feel unloved, unseen, and misunderstood. “Love, freedom, being understood—these are things I never had, but they’re things I crave deeply now.”

Through those years of feeling like expectations outweighed grace, built a quiet strength. Yet the scars remain. My Mother let out anger on me, and now as imagine future kids, the. dream of giving them what I never received: closeness, vulnerability, and open love. “I want them to know it’s okay to make mistakes and still be loved.”

Faith in the wilderness

While faith wasn’t always there growing up—being forced to attend church daily and do devotions—today, it is o

wned in a personal way. Also connecting with God deeply takes place through dreams, worship, and sermons by Pastor T.D. Jakes. Sunday afternoons from 2–5 PM are sacred, spent in online church, fasting, and Bible study. This approach is intimate, reflective—an hour a day with God, seeking clarity.

Still, guilt lingers from past decisions, and at times, anger: “Why did I go through all of this?” Yet is not running from God but toward Him—longing for peace, forgiveness, and purpose.

So what does self-realisation mean to you?

It means knowing I’m loved by God, that I don’t have to do everything alone—and that I was made for something.” .. Amen to that ❤️